Welcome to Our Fucking Podcast.

I'm here to officially blog-nounce (yes that's a thing, I'm making it a thing shut up) that my friend Kai and I have started a podcast together. 

A little backstory on this. Now, if you've been following me since the beginning or even in the last year you'll know I've been in a constant wrestling match with my YouTube channel. I know this sounds off subject, but stay with me here. Things are always crazy busy and with our apartment it was difficult for me to find a space to really sit down and film. Our place is 90% boxes and inventory. Not the prettiest background, haha. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I honestly came to the realization a few weeks ago... I am not a YouTube personality person. Don't get me wrong, I loved making videos and when I have the time and space, I still do. But with everything else going on, it wasn't at the top of my to-do list. There are OTHER things I'm more passionate about. I'm just being honest with you. And hey, that's okay! It took me awhile to get to this point. I felt like the social media pressure was weighing on me to do makeup and hair videos, etc. etc. But I am never one to push out content that I'm not 100% stoked on. I'm not that person. I refuse.

And then, the idea to start a podcast was brought up. Ok. I'm into this... I'm 100% a conversationalist. A talker. I write like I speak (as you know) and I love discussing topics with people who push me, inspire me and come from a different walk of life. That excites the hell out of me. I wanna listen, learn and bring up topics people are afraid to speak about. I immediately thought of my honest, outspoken friend Kai as the perfect counterpart in this. Yes. Let's do this.

Our Fucking Podcast was born. 

What better name, right? We went through hundreds of candidates and I gotta tell you, I don't miss having to come up with AIM screen names ONE FUCKING BIT. That shit is hard and frustrating. Rummaging through song lyrics trying to find something that speaks to you. Ha, memories... But it is just that, our. fucking. podcast. A safe space. A haven. But also a shit show.

We've got a few full episodes so far and I gotta say, it's been really fucking fun. Yeah, sure, we live around 60 miles apart from each other and both have very busy lives, so getting together to record episodes has been a challenge but we do everything we can to make it happen! We make zero financial profit, but the emails and messages we receive from our listeners... uh, 200% worth it. That is our fuel. Helping people. Whoever it is. All we strive to do is talk about subjects that are somewhat taboo, touchy and raw. Hey that's how life is. And that's okay! We hold nothing back and you shouldn't ever feel alone because life is messy, we get that. 

Right now we're solely on Soundcloud. iTunes seems to hate us and won't approve us as a channel, but we're still working on it. But it's so easy! See below or download the app to listen for free. 

So, go on a long drive. Have a listen. Subscribe. Stick around.

We'd love to hear your thoughts and feedback! Anyways, I promise I won't take this long to post a blog again. I just didn't want you to think I disappeared. I've just been SUPER busy with life. It's been so long and I've missed you all so much. Ugh, I love you guys. xo Stay sassy.

ps. Please feel free to follow my girl Kai on social media as well, here's a link to her blog and her instagram